每逢一顆巨星的殞落,尤其是那群八十年代的天皇天后,人們總會惋惜地把他的名字按在方程式內:我們不會再有第二個梅艷芳、我們不會再有第二個陳百強,這條實為常理的方程式還包括了我們不會再有第二個張國榮。
近年網上再次看到故人的身影,是張國榮在《今夜不設防》的訪問片段,在鏡頭前說起當年在頒獎禮上被喝倒采和辱罵還是氣在心頭。這樣的他是如斯赤裸真實,沒有因明星身份而強裝大愛,他也不過一個人。我們懷念的除了是意氣風發的舞台巨星,也忘不了那個風采過人的城市。
時尚先鋒
自信的穿上 Jean-Paul Gautier
他由起始就是個有國際視野的先鋒,1977年他參加麗的電視的歌唱比賽。挑選本地聽眾熟悉的作品可算是打了底分,他卻選擇美國唱作歌手 Don McLean 的代表作 “American Pie”。
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歌曲音律非新手歌手能輕易駕馭,張國榮在台上卻顯得自在又投入,有人未能接受這種叛逆,可亦有人說他有 James Dean 的影子。
沒有理會外界理解與否,他多年來把外國的養份和視野注入城市,音樂如是,時尚如是。
2000年,張國榮成了第一位成功邀請 Jean-Paul Gautier 合作的亞洲藝人,在《熱·情》演唱會中以及腰長髮、透視裝和短裙示人,把中性氣質推至極致。
唯此先鋒性的嘗試未獲認同,香港媒體都說他是貞子、是變態,跳出本土、比主流走得前,受的苦注定比人多。
觀眾的眼睛還在香港
現在不少人都說,香港的歌手演員青黃不接,快六十歲的劉德華還在當男一,樂壇頒獎禮的得獎者沒幾個叫得出名字。
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其實並非沒有新血,只是觀眾的選擇多了,周邊地區的娛樂軟實力瘋狂崛起,隔著屏幕也能知天下事,他們的眼光可以放更遠。碰巧當年是香港影視文化發熱的年代,樂壇裡大家都在看譚詠麟和張國榮之爭。
《風繼續吹》很紅的那一年,他明知在勁歌金曲頒獎禮上沒有領獎的份兒,他還是出席了,可是他卻知道羅文因爲嫌只有一個獎而曾經考慮缺席。
後來他因此而哭了,因為他真的很渴望得到認同,「哪怕你只有一個獎,甚至半個獎,你已經有機會獲獎了,為什麼要考慮缺席呢?」
他在乎,皆因在乎也尊重香港的歌迷和市場。當時日本樂壇比香港的更為百花齊放,他受邀越洋表演,在以日語介紹後,唱的仍是廣東話的《無心睡眠》,得體又不忘本。
對身份的自信
「我站出來就是保證」
不單是亮麗的中環儷人,八十年代的人都以「香港人」的身份為傲,對生活、對自我的滿足感較大,當中包括了張國榮。
又一年勁歌頒獎禮,他再次被喝倒采,那年明明已經開了十二場演唱會,他生氣了,因為這踐踏了他的專業,「我收了報酬,我永遠都盡力唱、把心交給你們,我張國榮站出來就是保證。」
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擁有強大的心臟,才可以在盡力卻被批評後繼續唱下去,而不影響自信。
張國榮離開十六年了,除了單純的懷念,也許把他激情又自信的精神消化並體現於日常,比看著黑白照睹物思人更有意義。
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[Part 1] 時間過得真係好快,又係時候講bye bye...照顧好自己! 幾時再見??! 五年已經過去了。真的很感謝每一位支持的朋友. 我應承我會保留我的Instagram. Firstly I would like to say thanks to ALL my fans across the world for your support, I wouldn’t have done it without you. To my loyal fans who have supported at me at the beginning, I am eternally grateful! And to the celebrities out there who have also supported me along this journey, it means a lot to me, and maybe one day we can meet ✌ I have been sharing photos for over 5 years now since August 2013 and wow what a journey it’s been! Up to this point I am tired…like literally. What I mean is I give up a lot of time to prepare and share these photos. Depending on the volume, it can take up to one hour to prepare the tags and even longer when I share the photos on the day, and even “edit” the photos to look better. In a day, there’s only 24 hours and to use two hours of my personal free time is a lot when I could have had more sleep or more revision done. I am quite the systematic person and if you’ve ever noticed the photos are organised well, and that involves more preparation, I don’t share photos in a random pattern. I’ve noticed over the years that my page has inspired many people across the world to appreciate the classics in Hong Kong, memorising your happiest memories, and in particular fashion designers to draw in some ideas. I’ve covered a vast range of artists which always attract many fans, and not fixated on any particular one. Just for it to sink in, I’ve shared over 6000 photos in five years…that’s a lot! I need to direct my focus onto my own personal life and that’s important. My priorities need to change. When I was younger, I cared about social recognition but as time goes on, I realise that is just a digital illusion and it’s time to live real. At the end of the day, when you take away my Instagram and Youtube page, I’m just a normal person like everybody else, working hard and earning a living. These social pages are just my hobby, to share my love to everyone. For so long I have shared this happiness and love to everyone out there, when really I need to divert that to myself now, not to sound too selfish. #張國榮 #lesliecheung #レスリーチャン #finale #80年代
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